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bittersweet.

You turned a year old yesterday.

A year.

It's so bittersweet.  

I want you to stay little. 

It's hard to imagine that anything could be better than this first year.  

So I don't want to give it up.

But I also know that each day has gotten sweeter with you.

I have fallen more in love.  

I have loved watching you thrive.

Developing and growing.

Becoming you.

So I look forward to the next year.  Knowing in my head that this year will be just as amazing if not better.  But having to convince my heart, as it longs to stay in this first precious, perfect year.

Happy 1st Birthday Crews and Tate!

Y'all are a year old.

And I am in shock.

I absolutely can not believe that it has been a year.

Since my life was changed.
My world was rocked.
And my understanding of love was deepened further than I knew possible.

I can't believe it has been a year since I met these two sweet faces.

 Crews Joels

2 lb 15 oz

5:48 am

Tate McKennly

4 lb 5 oz

6:01 am

Over the last year I have laughed more and cried more.
Slept less and learned to appreciate life more than I ever have before.
I fallen deeper in love with the two of you every second of the last 365 days.

You have changed my life.

You have made parts of me come alive that I never knew existed.

Thank you for making me a mom.

fun in the leaves!

The weather is gorgeous these days.  

I don't take enough pictures of the twins.

On Sunday, when I was finally feeling better from the worst stomach bug of the decade (which caused us to reschedule the boys FIRST BIRTHDAY PARTY.  Waaaah. I digress...), we snuck outside for some pictures.  

Here are some of my favorites.

moxie monday edition 5.0

moxie monday edition 4.0

project 52.31

innovative.

It's crazy how you just learn to make things work once you become a mom.  

This week, you both fell asleep in the car on the way home from running errands.  This mama was in desperate need of a few moments without being tugged on or spit up on or cried for.   And, I knew that you would not fall back asleep if I woke you up to put you in your cribs.  So, I parked in the driveway and ran in to grab my bible study and the perfect guilty pleasure, BooBerry cereal (thank you, October!).  I got back in the car, and enjoyed 45 minutes of quiet while y'all napped in your carseats.

Ya gotta take it when you can get it, mmmkay?

project 52.30

adored.

I adore this.  

This time spent with yall.  

It won't be long before you're no longer interested in being only in my lap.  So, I'm going to soak it up. Your Uncle Colby was holding one of you, but you weren't having it.  So, he handed you over and decided he needed to see what was go great about being in my lap, too.

I want to soak up these moments.  

Hold you just a little tighter. 

And hold you just a little longer.  

moxie monday edition 3.0

Read about Moxie Monday, here.

i love you because...

Jordan's love language is affirmation.  

If you don't know what I'm talking about when I say love language, you should go read this book.  LIke, go order it now.  And read it.  You will be glad you did.  And your husband will be even more excited that you did.  Then, go buy him the audio version so he can listen to it in his car.  You'll be glad you did that, too.  I'm speaking from experience here :)

Back when I was posting my goals, one of my February goals was about not doing a good job of affirming Jordan.  Carrie left a comment that I should make a "I love you because:" frame.

So, I printed this out and put it in a frame in our bathroom.  

I just keep a dry-erase marker behind the frame.  For months I filled in the blank with something every day.  I would put serious things or funny things.  Jordan really loved it.   In fact, if it got late and I still hadn't changed it for the day, he would make a comment about it.  

I have not kept up with it recently but I thought I should share!  Just in case your husband loves him some affirmation like mine does! 

moxie monday edition 2.0.

Read about Moxie Monday, here.